いよくてきじゃない・・・

I have not been very motivated lately, I haven't been doing much at all recently. I'm not sure why I get like this sometimes, but I really hate it. I wish I was more motivated and got more things done throughout the day, but I never do. I just talk of doing them and thats about as far as I get.

I really need to fix that. I can be heavily motivated at one moment, and then not care at all the next. I'm not going to get anywhere in life like that, yet it's a lot harder to fix than you would think. Maybe I should see a doctor or something about it.

Anyways, it just pisses me off how I can never manage to get anything done because of my own self. I should be practicing 3D modeling (which I will never get a job doing if I don't), studying Japanese (and attempting to go to Japan), and spending more time to better my life, yet I do none of those. I pretty much just sit around, sleep, do random shit, and waste time. I just can't bring myself to do anything worthwhile without getting pissed off at it and giving up on it, or being sidetracked.

Anyways, enough about that, just wanted to get that off my chest.